i love sleeping. it was really a news to me when i heard from the radio that- there's no such thing as sleeping too much. When your body has rested enough, you will just not feel like sleeping anymore... wow... and my hobby is sleeping. The other is, staying up in the wee hours. yes, i did both during the long chinese new year break. Now im paying back the hours with Master Zhuo, the chess master.
Slept at 730pm last night, after i heard the rain. It was really nice to be greeted with cool breeze and fair skies this morning. I had my glasses on thru'out the nite....
Spent some time thinking what I had to do today.... and thought about the future.
(be patient and wait. this is not the time yet to decide. you will be convinced when the time is full. Set your heart and mind now, to prepare what's ahead of you. ) -HE makes all things beautiful in HIS time.
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Sunday, February 14, 2010
learning to live
feeling the confused mix after yesterday. how strange is it?
many times, we tend to pick things based on what we think is good for ourselves, ignoring what others are telling us on the outside.
I tend to be forgetful about the pains and hurts of the past quite easily once i have gotten over. I don't bear grudges and tend to mend relationships quite quickly. is this my ability to tolerate? Sometimes, i wished i have abetter memory than this. A better memory guided by wisdom, telling me not to re-visit those places or people again.
seeing you and hearing those stories did not affect me a single bit. the similarity did. why does it still work that way after so long? this machine works its match everytime even when i havent cared or service it after so long. Even when i bothered to care-less with the way i behaved or with the words i say. The outcome still has the unlike poles meeting. this is not simply a work of magnetic field. Who maintained this like-mindedness?
Resting on my back, I recalled the similar events happening again and again. The same words spoken, the same intention, the same intensity. It all sounded like, teenage-growing up stories, stories of a child past. A child wanting to purchase that toy or selecting that 'cool' course in poly, thinking it would be his passion career for life. but only after working it thru with much tears and toil, u realised - i have been idealistic... life is meant to be lived simply.
However, i will force this through and neglect those magnets. I will hide my heart in the corner of the room till the time is full.
till my life has changed and been tested from all temptation, I will not be ready. Growing up and maturity is about knowing yourself and learning to see what is value. learning not be short-changed by the seemingly appealing.
many times, we tend to pick things based on what we think is good for ourselves, ignoring what others are telling us on the outside.
I tend to be forgetful about the pains and hurts of the past quite easily once i have gotten over. I don't bear grudges and tend to mend relationships quite quickly. is this my ability to tolerate? Sometimes, i wished i have abetter memory than this. A better memory guided by wisdom, telling me not to re-visit those places or people again.
seeing you and hearing those stories did not affect me a single bit. the similarity did. why does it still work that way after so long? this machine works its match everytime even when i havent cared or service it after so long. Even when i bothered to care-less with the way i behaved or with the words i say. The outcome still has the unlike poles meeting. this is not simply a work of magnetic field. Who maintained this like-mindedness?
Resting on my back, I recalled the similar events happening again and again. The same words spoken, the same intention, the same intensity. It all sounded like, teenage-growing up stories, stories of a child past. A child wanting to purchase that toy or selecting that 'cool' course in poly, thinking it would be his passion career for life. but only after working it thru with much tears and toil, u realised - i have been idealistic... life is meant to be lived simply.
However, i will force this through and neglect those magnets. I will hide my heart in the corner of the room till the time is full.
till my life has changed and been tested from all temptation, I will not be ready. Growing up and maturity is about knowing yourself and learning to see what is value. learning not be short-changed by the seemingly appealing.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
6 months soon
after all the words and walks. I finally understood a truth i was told many many times years ago by a friend. It was a fact a few months ago but it has become a truth now. Hearing those words, I lost my balance. It reconfirms all those words that I saw, it turned matter into a sense of smell. gaseous state. returning to the ozone.
waking up from a sleep after years is a good feeling. jieying, trust what you hear on the inside, trust the words inside. Could YOU tell me what's wrong with me? Are there really so many criteria to be chosen? Is it all a kind of science?
Talking and thinking through, I had a feeling that its many years to go for you . Many years to go on to sort out all that's within the heart and mind. (I hope i'm wrong on this though...)
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